Shiva Purana — Kotirudra Samhita, Shloka 84
Niṣādasya Bhillasya Itihāsaḥ — Śivarātri-vrata-prabhāvaḥ
The Hunter’s Account and the Efficacy of the Śivarātri Observance
कां वा गतिं गमिष्यामि पातकं जन्मतः कृतम् । इदानीं चिंतयाम्येवं धिग्धिक् च जीवनं मम
kāṃ vā gatiṃ gamiṣyāmi pātakaṃ janmataḥ kṛtam | idānīṃ ciṃtayāmyevaṃ dhigdhik ca jīvanaṃ mama
“我将能抵达何等归宿？罪业自出生便由我造作。如今我如此反省——可耻啊，可耻！我的此生真是可叹。”
Suta Goswami (narrating a devotee’s lament within the Kotirudra narrative)
Tattva Level: pashu
FAQs
It expresses intense self-examination (ātma-vicāra) and remorse, a turning point where the soul recognizes bondage (pāśa) caused by pāpa and becomes ready to seek Pati—Lord Shiva—as the liberating refuge through grace and devotion.
Such lament typically precedes śaraṇāgati (surrender). In the Kotirudra context, the devotee’s despair becomes the impetus to approach Saguna Shiva as the Jyotirliṅga—an accessible, compassionate form through which Shiva burns impurities and redirects one toward liberation.
A practical takeaway is repentance followed by steady japa of the Pañcākṣarī (“Om Namaḥ Śivāya”), along with simple Śiva-upacāra such as offering water to the Liṅga, wearing Rudrākṣa, and applying Tripuṇḍra (bhasma) to cultivate purity and surrender.